I don't know how this whole journey through grief will work. What I do know is that I continue reading and hearing that everyone's journey is different. I feel like mine will be an excruciatingly long process as I'm still trying to only figure out what will work the best to help me get through the fact that my whole life changed in a single instant.
Our dreams, our hopes, our lives all changed simply because of one injury. Yes, I'm very relieved that Joe didn't suffer - it gives me comfort considering no one can tell me how long he was lying in the mud on the side of Highway 85. The autopsy report stated that Joe's C1 and C2 vertebrae had fractured and separated (which indicated instant death). That was his ONLY injury other than scrapes and bruises after being thrown from a semi that rolled.
Now, three months later, the numbness and shock has faded. I want that back. I don't want to have to face life without my partner, my best friend, my lover, my child's father, my all.
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